my eyes feel swollen. I want so badly to live and breath a reality. I want to see. I want the heavens to rend....I want my heart to break. I ache for it with an with an indescribable ache. When I read these words I want them to be more than words. I want them to be a reality that I can dance about, one that the heavens shout, that the earth sings.....one that lends sight to us who are blind. One that shakes and only leaves that which cannot be shaken. I ache for their truth. I groan for my life to be more than a plastic castle. toys so easily thrown away. I want love. I want to see it with my own eyes, I want to know what God's footfall next to mine sounds like. I want to know what these words mean, in a way that makes me live the meaning. inescapable beauty.

Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.
Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be satisfied.
Blessed are the merciful, for they shall receive mercy.
Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God.
Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are you when others revile you, and persecute you and utter all kinds of evil against you falsely on my account. Rejoice, and be glad, for your reward is great in heaven. For so they persecuted the prophets who were before you.
-Jesus.